All in Age: 6

Even though we see Justin and Joy every day, we have begun this practice of the two of them coming to our house for a Saturday dinner. Just as if we were living next to each other in Toronto.

Justin and I play chess in the living room. Joy plays with some of Justin’s old toys, plays with Justin, and with Suzy.

Right now I’m sitting in my Archie Bunker chair while Justin sits on the sofa. Joy leaps at him, and he grabs her tightly.

“I gotcha!” he exclaims and she shrieks in happiness. “I gotcha and I’m never letting you go!”

Joy struggles in his arms. “I’m never ever ever letting you go!” he says as she struggles. He releases his hold just enough to allow her to escape.

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“His name is Master Mind,” Charlie says. “He’s a big robot.”

“A big robot?” Amahle is thoughtful. That seems to remind her of something.

“A big killer robot. He protects Joy.”

“Why are you all here, Charlie? Why aren’t you all gone from my dream?”

She takes a step forward.

“Stop!” Charlie grabs her hand. She stops.

“One more step and you’ll fall off the ledge of your Shroom,” he says. “This isn’t your dream, Amahle. If you fall down here, you’ll fall until you hit something or until you wake up.”

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Joy lands on Justin’s Shroom a few meters above us and disappears from view. She’s probably going back to Bonny’s Revenge.

We are all awkwardly left on Amahle’s Shroom: Amahle who has just told Joy that she believes her to be her dream, Justin who just found out Amahle can always hear him breathe and recognized him as the man responsible for killing her in the dream and almost killing her in real life, Master Mind and Charlie.

Justin’s face is red. He is looking down. He doesn’t know what to do.

He opens his mouth to talk, then closes it.

Amahle stands and listens.

“Charlie, I can hear you standing near me. Why didn’t you disappear with Joy?”

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Joy and Charlie lead the way out of the tunnel. Amahle holds Joy’s shoulders and moves forward. She doesn’t have her cane or Elvis, her seeing eye-dog. They disappeared when she left her dream.

I’m behind Amahle. And Master Mind walks silently behind me.

Justin is ahead of all of us. He waits outside, silent, afraid to make a noise.

“Careful, now, careful,” Joy says as Amahle takes the first step into her Shroom. “You are now on a Shroom. Stop here.”

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It is our fifth time in Amahle’s dream.

Joy and Justin have had arguments that had gone back and forth many times in Justin’s dream about re-introducing Justin to Amahle. Back when Joy had run away from home on her sixth birthday, Justin, on my advice, tried to convince Amahle in her dream that he was killing her. He had hoped that when she woke up, the darkness of her dream would disappear and he would find the way out to save Joy.

But weeks later we had discovered, upon returning to Amahle’s dream, that she had died in real life and was brought back. What Justin had done had almost killed Amahle. Justin did not want to face Amahle. Joy wanted to become Amahle’s friend and wanted them to talk and meet again BS fUB.

Joy had won the argument partially - Justin agreed that they could show Amahle the way out of her dream and into The Dream with a capital ‘D’.

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“Have you never heard of the Zulu, Joy?”

“Amahle, I don’t know almost anything,” Joy’s voice sounds like she’s so sad and helpless.

Amahle takes a big breath. “That is not all right. You should speak to your father.”

“I will. Definitely,” she raises her voice, knowing her father is right there.

“Charlie, have you heard of the Zulu?”

“Not much. They’re an African tribe, right? They’re Native Africans.”

Amahle laughs. “That’s an interesting name to call them. They’re Africans. The Zulu are the fiercest and mightiest warrior race that ever was.”

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I hear Amahle ask, “You can hear the music?”

“It’s all around me, like it’s moving,” I hear Charlie say.

“I can hear it. What is it?” I hear Joy ask. “It makes my heart pound, but I don’t know why.”

“Walter,” Amahle calls out to me. As far as she’s concerned, it’s just me here with the kids. Master Mind and Justin are keeping silent and therefore invisible. “Do you hear the music?”

“I can hear it, Amahle. It’s very beautiful. Is that music from South Africa? Who wrote it?”

“Nobody wrote it, Walter. I hear music in my head. All the time. It’s how I feel… How can you hear my music?”

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“You know, my mother used to sit me with here right on this bench when I was a child,” Amahle says.

“Yeah?”

“We sat right here, and she would describe everything to me. See how everything is green, Joy and Charlie?”

“Very green.”

“I’ll take your word for it,” Charlie mumbles.

“It’s beautiful,” Amahle says. “She’d describe everything to me. Right behind me is a tree that comes out of its roots in three trunks.”

“That’s right!”

“How the path continues to the right, over there, and to the left. She talked to me about how the leaves of the trees cover everything above us and how the sun’s light comes in just so beautifully between the leaves.”

“Yeah,” Joy says.

“And I would have that picture in my head. Of the entire park. And my head would translate it to music.”

Music begins to play all around us, soft and beautiful.

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Charlie is still sick and we decided it’s best not to go into his dream while he is. Justin woke up an hour ago or so. And Joy, still wide awake, is spending time in our home.

Suzy and I are sitting on the porch, while Joy is standing on the stairs, trying to talk to her shadow.

“Jump!” she tells her shadow.

The shadow does not jump.

It is a strange shadow. I’ve never seen anything like it in the waking world. It seems to have a life of its own, and yet we’re not sure if it is just a shadow or something with a mind of its own.

The shadow doesn’t move. It stands there, like Joy.

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Joy had just asked Lukas, the man into whose dream we have walked for the first time just a few moments ago, to say ‘Dragon Father’, and now that he has, she’s excited.

“You know the Red Dragon!”

Lukas looks at her, still thrown for a loop over everything that’s happened. “Dragon? What… is… What do you mean?”

I make sure I’m right behind Joy, protecting her. With Justin out of this dream, I want to get out of here as soon as possible. “Joy,” I put a hand on her shoulder. “How can he know the Red Dragon? She was in your father’s dream.”

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Joy and Charlie approach Justin and the weight-lifting Dreamer in the barbell area.

Justin points to a barbell, “Charlie, see that barbell over there? It’s really heavy. Right?” This last one is aimed at the Dreamer.

“Ja,” the Dreamer says, still shocked at what he had seen Justin do, adding in a German accent, “Heavy.”

“What I want you to do is imagine that it is super super light. But you can’t change what it looks like. It has to look like this. Do you understand?”

Charlie nods and approaches one of the heavier barbells. He concentrates while looking at it intensely. Then he reaches down and touches it to test it. He laughs then raises it with one finger.

The Dreamer gasps, shocked.

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This dream looks harmless enough. And yet, we are prepared: Justin, Master Mind, and Charlie are all ready to protect Joy should something happen. And then there’s me, the excess baggage who can’t protect anyone.

We exit Charlie’s elevator in this new dream. This is a city street. People are walking around harmlessly, and no danger seems to be about. The chatter on the street appears to be German. Are we in Germany? I’m not sure.

“That’s the center,” Justin points to a two-story building with glass walls. Inside, we can see a gym. “Let’s go!”

We enter the gym, and although there are quite a few people working out, the man in the middle of the room is the one with the Dreamer’s shadow.

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Justin is in a terrible mood the second we get out of the dream with the mecha suits battle.

“Dad, let’s try that dream!” Joy points to a Shroom to her immediate left.

Justin’s lips are closed tight, and he shakes his head. “We’re going home,” he manages to say.

I have only seen him this angry when he was a kid, and during those times he wouldn’t say more than a few syllables in hours.

Joy tries to argue, but Justin ignores her. “Master Mind, Dad, let’s go!” He activates his jetpack and flies off the Shroom.

Master Mind looks at Joy, who is miffed at being ignored. Then he follows Justin upwa

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“Dad, Dad, Dad! Pleeeeez!” Joy clings to Justin’s clothes as we stand in the tunnel, looking at a full blown space war and two mecha exoskeletons taken out of what Justin has identified as an Anime TV show battle each other. “Put me in! Let me help her!”

Charlie steps to the edge. “Maybe I should go in?”

Just as he does so a laser cannon from the big alien ship blows up a small fighter spaceship and it explodes.

“Nope, nope, nope,” Charlie takes a step back.

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A giant blue-green exoskeleton lands on top of the alien ship. Inside, I can see a woman with long black hair, but she’s too far away.

The giant alien ship, green, all full of bumps and large antennae, makes its way through an asteroid storm. From behind the asteroids, multiple alien ships appear. These are small, maneuver fast, and fire lasers at the big ship.

The giant exoskeleton makes its way, step by step, towards a pretty big bump: No doubt the way inside.

But then a huge doorway opens in that bump, and a mean-looking red exoskeleton appears.

“So coooool” Joy says.

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“I don’t know what this university is,” he says .”But look over here. There are palm trees. Over here there are fountains.”

I look around. “I’ve never seen anything like it. Maybe it’s not a university?”

Justin points to the young twenty-year-olds walking around with backpacks. ”It’s a university. Also, I heard them speak. I think that’s Arabic.”

Charlie points to their shadows. “They’re all dreams,” he says.

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Over the last two months Joy, Justin, Master Mind, Charlie and I have covered quite a few dreams in our immediate surroundings. They’re always different. Some are dangerous. Some are harmless. Many don’t speak English or French and we can’t find a way to communicate well.

Now we’re traveling a bit further away, going five Shrooms in one direction.

“All right,” Justin says, as he peeks into the tunnel. “Let’s go in. Me, Charlie, Joy, Master Mind, then Dad.”

It’s the same order as always. Two Dreamers first who can deal with anything and/or die without anything happening to them. Then Joy, because you can’t keep her further back than that. Then Master Mind to protect her. Then me, because I’m a grandpa and a dream and I can get hurt.

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We all stand at the edge of the tunnel which leads into this new and unknown dream. There is a city below.

“I don’t recognize the city,” Justin says.

“I’ve seen this. I’ve seen this,” I say, but can’t remember where it was. “It’s really familiar.”

“Pirates,” Master Mind points to the center of the city. “Observe a flying man!”

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